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If you had a traumatic childhood, then you are carrying this Bad Mindset Pack (BMP) all the time.
The core power of meditation is it can change our mindset. On top of that, we see the fundamental truth of this world.
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There is a hidden frame for being good at anything and achieve greatness in life, this secret is the Wild Pyramid of Life.